Clown
Sad as a painted clown, a beautiful boy in an ugly town
but when your circus closes down don’t walk away from me
you’ve been asleep too long, the birds are bruises in the dawn
the pounds of flesh between us stretch as far as you can see
But all you ever do is walk away and I know if you’d only go slow
you could see what it means to be making the scene with me
But all you ever do is walk away and I think if you tried
you could find a little time
for the life I can see in your eyes, don’t go. Don’t go.
Sometimes you just explode and no one alive can break your code
You have a language of your own, an unconnected road
The people you called your friends, the places you won’t go again
The decades lost in finding them, you’ll have to let them go.
Stephin Merritt is the genius behind the Magnetic Fields. He’s an amazing songwriter and he’s got at least one other clown-related lyric.
I wandered in these big blue shoes,
till we had nothing left to lose.
Nobody wants you when you’re a circus clown.
I should know.
I looked all over town.
I wandered in these big blue shoes,
till we had nothing left to lose.
Nobody wants you when you’re a circus clown.
I should know.
I looked all over town.
I guess folks just don’t like my face.
They make out like I’m some disgrace.
But nothing’s gonna change this painted frown.
And I know.
I looked all over town.
Maybe somewhere I could be free.
Somewhere they won’t throw rocks at me.
Somewhere this crazy hair could be my crown.
But all my life,
I’ve looked all over town.
So whistling this circus tune,
I inflated one more balloon.
And as I floated up I looked straight down.
And I looked all over town.
One last time.
I looked all over town.
A great songwriter from another era also talked about clowns
Now if there’s a smile on my face
it’s only there tryin’ to fool the public
but when it comes down to foolin’ you;
Now honey, that’s quite a different subject
But don’t let my glad expression
give you the wrong impression
Really I’m sad
I’m sadder than sad
You’re gone and I’m hurtin’ so bad
Like a clown I pretend to be glad
Now there’s some sad things known to man
but ain’t too much sadder than
the tears of a clown
when there’s no one around
Now if I appear to be carefree
it’s only to camouflage my sadness
In order to keep my pride I try
to cover the hurt with a show of gladness
But don’t let my show convince you
that I’ve been happy since you
decided to go
Oh, I need you so
I’m hurt and I want you to know
Now there’s some sad things known to man
but ain’t too much sadder than
the tears of a clown
when there’s no one around
Just like Pagliacci did
I try to keep my sadness hid
Smiling in the public eye
But in my lonely room I cry
the tears of a clown
when there’s no one around
Clowns are occasionally funny, fundamentally sad but they can be scary too. Remember Stephen King’s It and Pennywise the creepy clown played by Tim Curry?
Since we’re talking about freaky clowns, let’s go to David Lynch‘s world for a while.
A candy-colored clown they call the sandman
Tiptoes to my room every night
Just to sprinkle stardust and to whisper
“Go to sleep. Everything is all right.”
In 2011, years after using Roy Orbison’s In dreams in Blue Velvet, David Lynch released his first solo album Crazy Clown Time (That’s if you don’t count BlueBob…)
They all run around
Oh, it’s crazy clown time!
It was really fun!
There’s also a weird video he released for his first single from the album. I don’t know if you can stream it from here since you need to sign in.
I know you got to go
Seen in comin’ baby
Just as plain as a day
Seen it comin’ at me
No way you can’t stay
I know, I know, I know
I, I, I know
Don’t have to tell me baby
I’m going to leave you on a lighter note. The picture on top is from a dance movie directed by Lloyd Newson: DV8 Physical Theatre‘s The Cost of Living. I can’t even start to describe it, I love it so much!
Have a look below and try to find and watch the whole film (it’s only 35 min long).
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